1 00:00:07,250 --> 00:00:10,350 Ah, sorry, I'll slow it down a little. 2 00:00:11,940 --> 00:00:13,880 I used to do this in med school. 3 00:00:15,000 --> 00:00:16,560 helps with dexterity. 4 00:00:30,120 --> 00:00:32,220 I was in the unit of trauma surgery in San Jose. 5 00:00:33,420 --> 00:00:35,990 When it all started, before we know anything. 6 00:00:38,230 --> 00:00:40,560 We were on the front line, of emergencies. 7 00:00:41,640 --> 00:00:42,390 Many... 8 00:00:43,790 --> 00:00:46,060 Many doctors and many good friends have died 9 00:00:46,660 --> 00:00:47,960 trying to help people. 10 00:00:49,160 --> 00:00:50,730 just trying to do their job. 11 00:00:54,120 --> 00:00:58,200 My husband, Ryan, He was an engineer in the city. 12 00:00:59,420 --> 00:01:02,330 We managed to find a way out of city, somehow. 13 00:01:03,790 --> 00:01:05,360 We ended up at a base, 14 00:01:06,260 --> 00:01:09,430 Where they needed plenty of medical care. 15 00:01:09,930 --> 00:01:11,280 Everything from... 16 00:01:11,910 --> 00:01:13,440 sutures... 17 00:01:16,090 --> 00:01:17,500 more serious than sutures. 18 00:01:22,950 --> 00:01:26,650 Ryan used to say that my hands they were more precious than a good fence. 19 00:01:31,130 --> 00:01:33,420 The new world made Ryan brave. 20 00:01:35,780 --> 00:01:37,230 This doesn't always happen. 21 00:01:39,400 --> 00:01:41,800 Sometimes fear, real fear... 22 00:01:43,220 --> 00:01:44,910 It brings out the worst in people. 23 00:01:47,370 --> 00:01:48,680 But not for Ryan. 24 00:01:52,580 --> 00:01:59,120 The way he protected me, It wasn't just because he loved me. 25 00:02:00,310 --> 00:02:02,040 It was because he knew... 26 00:02:03,840 --> 00:02:07,120 There weren't many more people left than I knew how to do what I know. 27 00:02:08,950 --> 00:02:12,270 He knew people needed me to survive. 28 00:02:13,900 --> 00:02:17,700 That was his gift to the world. Keep me alive. 29 00:02:22,560 --> 00:02:23,860 What happened to him? 30 00:02:30,380 --> 00:02:34,960 - And in your hand? What happened? - Debridement. 31 00:02:36,730 --> 00:02:39,520 The victim ended up on the wrong side of the horde 32 00:02:40,020 --> 00:02:41,420 You know what a horde is, right? 33 00:02:44,480 --> 00:02:50,050 Well he was trying divert the horde away from the camp. 34 00:02:51,750 --> 00:02:55,570 Someone got nervous, fired at the horde. 35 00:02:56,070 --> 00:02:58,430 And the bullet hit him in the stomach. 36 00:03:00,670 --> 00:03:04,940 The shot pierced him, but he was bleeding to death 37 00:03:06,940 --> 00:03:11,690 I put it on the block, no monitor, no electricity 38 00:03:12,190 --> 00:03:14,130 I didn't even have a chance to sterilize it, 39 00:03:14,930 --> 00:03:16,110 Not that it mattered. 40 00:03:19,310 --> 00:03:24,440 I was so focused to stop the bleeding that... 41 00:03:27,570 --> 00:03:29,790 I didn't realize he had died. 42 00:03:34,160 --> 00:03:38,190 I thought I'd probably be trying come to me, he was so scared. 43 00:03:39,890 --> 00:03:42,560 But I was so focused on trying keep him alive... 44 00:03:44,040 --> 00:03:45,220 that I didn't realize. 45 00:03:48,080 --> 00:03:49,430 Until he bit me. 46 00:03:51,410 --> 00:03:56,120 I knew I had maybe a minute to amputate, then... 47 00:03:57,220 --> 00:04:00,490 It's not pretty, but I'm alive. 48 00:04:03,790 --> 00:04:04,930 The patient... 49 00:04:07,430 --> 00:04:08,930 Was it your husband? 50 00:04:16,520 --> 00:04:17,880 Is it that obvious? 51 00:04:20,930 --> 00:04:22,850 Why didn't you want to tell me? 52 00:04:26,010 --> 00:04:28,630 Why didn't I want him be remembered that way. 53 00:04:32,260 --> 00:04:34,010 Because if he knew that... 54 00:04:35,410 --> 00:04:38,350 his death meant I can't operate again... 55 00:04:41,220 --> 00:04:47,100 If you knew that the last act altruist of bravery stole this from people... 56 00:04:47,600 --> 00:04:49,340 people who needed it, 57 00:04:52,110 --> 00:04:53,370 It would be like... 58 00:04:55,680 --> 00:04:58,490 I don't know, like he comes back to die again. 59 00:05:05,680 --> 00:05:09,560 That's why I have to relearn how to operate with just one hand. 60 00:05:11,970 --> 00:05:13,010 I have to make it. 61 00:05:16,910 --> 00:05:18,560 So I can help people. 62 00:05:18,860 --> 00:05:20,970 So that his death was not in vain. 63 00:05:36,250 --> 00:05:37,510 That's what I'm going to do.